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What do you know about CBD oil? Until recently I’d heard about it and have had conversations with people online who have said how wonderful it is. I’m not someone who believes hype. I am cynical and usually require proof for me to get behind something. However, in a desperate attempt to help my daughter, I have had skip a few steps I would usually take before getting involved with something. My daughter is in her second year at university. She is living away from home and experiencing diagnosed anxiety which may be related to Asperger’s/Autism. Recent events have led me to jump on the CBD bandwagon.

I don’t know much about cannabidiol or CBD. I know CBD oil contains much lower levels of Tetrahydrocannabinol (That’s THC for those of us with not enough time on our hands to remember that many syllables.) THC causes the high people experience from cannabis. I am very naïve when it comes to drugs-I know cannabis is the one you can bake into stuff or smoke-I’m not an expert! Where we are in the UK, in order to be legal, CBD products need to contain no more than 0.2% THC. And you know the stuff is legal when you see CBD capsules on the top shelf of your regular pharmacy.

Possibly the only reason I went down this route is because of advice given to us by the out of hours GP my daughter saw at the beginning of the semester. Also having a daughter with autism, the GP said nothing prescribed had worked for her daughter, but CBD oil had helped. There are apparently trials in London. The trouble with trials is that they are difficult to get onto and a lot of people require help now, not after a year of quite possibly taking a placebo. However, trials and studies are a necessity if the medical profession is ever going to get behind a new treatment.

We can’t wait for the medical profession to catch up. Having tried antidepressants for anxiety with no effect, good or bad, we need something else to help. My daughter has been on a waiting list for cognitive behavioural therapy for a year and also an autism assessment for the same amount of time. While we’re waiting for those things to materialise, some aid or solutions need to be sourced.

So I contacted a colleague who I also knew to be a drug dealer, sorry, CBD Oil distributor, and I bought a couple of tiny bottles of 5% drops which you put under your tongue twice a day. I gave one bottle to my daughter and started on the other bottle myself. I need help with my anxiety in order to help her with her anxiety. I’ve often said “anxiety breeds anxiety”. Like a folie a deux but with worry and not hallucinations. My initial reaction was “how much?” This stuff isn’t cheap. Cheap is relative. If you have surplus money, you have a different level of what you consider to be cheap. Not yet living in the huge house with it’s own grounds, the second thing I did was to set myself up as a distributor so I could take advantage of the discount distributors get. So now I’m my daughter’s drugs dealer, sorry CBD Oil supplier and I haven’t a bloody clue what I’m doing.

I have read some things. Many sentences include the word “may”. CBD Oil may help anxiety, chronic pain, fatigue, insomnia. It may help with other things. They know CBD oil is not psychoactive ie you won’t get high from taking it. I have seen pictures that “show” skin conditions have improved supposedly after using CBD products. I do not yet have any first-hand experience of this or any of the other benefits that are publicised in the media. In order for CBD oil to have an impact on anxiety, I’ve been told it needs to be taken for at least 6 weeks. That’s an entire bottle of drops.

I have no concerns about my daughter taking CBD oil as she has no medical conditions or medications that might interact with it. However, for me, the worry is that my liver enzymes may once again be adversely affected by a natural remedy I have taken to alleviate my symptoms where the medical profession has yet to provide a solution. It’s one thing to listen to a doctor telling me to stop taking the natural remedy, however, I am becoming tired of not being shown a medically approved alternative treatment.

As the medical profession keeps telling me, I have a lot of symptoms. No one body of medics has found the cause or name for what I have. This week, I have very painful hands which are dropping every small thing I try to grip. This has been going on for years but this week is made worse by building a flat pack. I will bore you with a separate post about that later. You have been warned.

I kept a meeting with a family member on Tuesday and as I was walking back home, a distance I used to be able to do several times a day, I was so fatigued, I began willing myself to put one foot in front of the other. I’m too young and refuse to morph into this little old lady I risk becoming.

With the medical profession saying more studies need to be conducted before the science to back the benefits of CBD oil becomes overwhelming, anecdotal evidence already is. And that for now, with the lack of any viable alternative, will have to be enough.